It’s kind of a weird job when I think about it. I didn’t film these, I don’t know where they come from. Hell, I don’t even bring the people in to watch them. My job is to show the tape and maybe bend their arm to get them to actually watch.
I know this job sounds insane, but most of my clients die in their sleep. They’re timid before I show the tape, but afterwards, they feel relieved. I can’t tell anyone what date it happens on because I’m not given that information; it’s above my pay grade. I had an unusual one come in last week for a 31 year old woman.
I walked into the modern office and sat in my black leather chair. I logged into my company’s website and checked the schedule. Mary Peters at 9:30 was my first client. I still had about 25 minutes until she came in, so I opened my window and smoked my morning cigarette. I was running late to work and nobody who works here comes into my office anyway. I watched people taking morning walks in the park across the street. There were a few dogs here and there, some happy couples enjoying life. If there’s one thing this job has done, it’s taken away any assurance and confidence I’ve had in living a long life. I’ve had people as young as 24 come in here, and they don’t have the “dying in your sleep” plans the elderly do. I noticed a reflection in the window as Mary walked into my office.
“Hi, I heard you know about death?” She asked.
“Well, I know enough.” I said as I tossed my cigarette butt into the parking lot.
“I have a history of heart disease in my family.” She said. “If that’s how I’m supposed to die, I want to go in and see if there’s some preventative action I can take now.”
“That’s not how it works, Mary.” I replied. “If I have it on tape, there’s nothing you can do to stop it.”
“Tape?” She asked horrified.
“Well, we don’t use those anymore.” I said. “They’re just on my computer. I’m just used to saying tape since we used VHS tapes back when I started.”
“Nevermind, I can’t… I’m sorry.. This is just..” She stuttered trying to find the right words.
“Listen, you’re here, maybe it’ll give you some clearance.” I said.
She sat there, wrestling with her thoughts as she chewed on her fingernails. I know how harsh it is to do this, it’s probably the most shocking thing you could ever heard in your lifetime. After about 10 minutes of silence, she broke it.
“Alright, let’s just watch it.” She said.
“Okay.” I replied.
I was trying to be as heartfelt as I could, I knew what she was going through. I turned my monitor around so she could see as I pulled up the video. She was driving, the sun was just rising as she sipped her coffee. The windows were down as her Subaru SUV kicked up gravel behind her. She must’ve been up late the night before because she was struggling to keep her head up. She fell asleep at the wheel and swerved off the road. Her car hit a tree and split the hood in half. Her head bounced off the steering wheel and crashed against her seat. She was in the middle of nowhere. There were no bystanders to call the police, she was pinned down in her crumpled vehicle. The video went on for about 15 more minutes of her struggling with the seat belt as blood stung her eyes. She couldn’t reach her phone and one arm must’ve been broken in several places as she couldn’t do anything with it. She looked horrified, but didn’t know what to say.
“I’d recommend trying to get some quality time in with loved ones.” I said. “And don’t mention a thing about this place.”
She signed a non-disclosure agreement and headed out the door. I had one more appointment, but I needed another cigarette. These tragic ones get to you, and I still try my best to hope we get it wrong sometimes.
Eric walked into my office at 2:00 as I was sending off an email.
“Shut the door behind you.” I said as he crossed through the door frame.
He shut the door and turned back to face me. His styled black hair housed a pair of cheap sunglasses as he plopped into the worn down chair that sat across from me. His suit couldn’t hide the stain by the collar on his white shirt. I like to look for the little things that differentiate the people I see; anything to help me realize they’re still human beings.
“I hear you’re some kind of fortune teller who can tell me about death?” He asked.
“Well, I can show you yours.” I replied nonchalantly.
“Show?” He asked. “You trying to kill me?”
I laughed for a second as this was the first time anyone ever asked me that question.
“No, I can just show you how it will happen.” I said.
“Like, a movie?” He asked.
“It’s a video on my computer.” I said bluntly. “It’s four minutes long.”
“Nah man, I can’t do that.” He said.
“Alrighty then.” I replied. “The door behind you locked when you shut it.”
“Then open it.” He replied sharply.
“I can’t open it until you see this video.” I said. “But if you really don’t want to do this, I’ll write up some paperwork making up a story about you escaping. Emergency exit’s to your left.”
He stood up and looked at the door about two feet from my desk. I rose from my chair and escorted him to it and closed the door behind him. It wasn’t an emergency exit, it’s just a room to hold him until he changed his mind.
“What the fuck?!” He exclaimed. “Let me out.”
“Are you ready to watch?” I asked.
“No, I’m ready to kick your ass.” He replied.
“Okay, when you have a change of heart, I’ll make some popcorn and we can watch.” I said.
This wasn’t the first time I’d had people refuse to watch. I actually was lucky that Mary shut the door behind her while I was finishing my cigarette. I’ve had a few people get out of my office, but they never get out of the building.
I sat at my desk, signing files, writing memos, just normal office work. 4:30 hit and I checked on Eric to see how he was doing.
“Hey buddy, ready to watch?” I asked.
“You’re off at 5:00, right?” He asked.
“I do get off at 5:00.” I said. “They don’t pay me overtime, so I’ll just leave you here and come back in the morning if it comes to that.”
“You’re lying.” He said.
“Okay, see you in the morning.” I said. I walked over, hit the light switch, opened the door and closed it loud enough for him to hear.
“Wait!” He screamed. “I’ll watch.”
“Sounds like a plan to me buddy.” I replied.
I opened the door and he stood there with his tie un-done and his suit coat on the floor.
“I’m sorry about that Eric, I get into some deep shit with the boss if I don’t get this done.” I said.
He walked over to the chair and sat lifelessly as I pulled up the video on my monitor.
He was ice fishing, but it didn’t look like the right conditions for it. As he was walking to his hole, the ice cracked and he went underwater. He thrashed around but was so disoriented, he ended up swimming about 5 feet from the original opening. The ice was too thin, we could see him pounding his fists on the ice as he drifted into the dark water.
“I’m sorry about that Eric.” I said. “I know it’s difficult to see this.”
“How do you know?” He asked.
“Because I was in your shoes once.” I replied. “That was before I got a job here.”
“How do you die?” He asked.
I rolled up my sleeves and lit up my last cigarette. I didn’t enjoy thinking about it, but I remember the video clear as day.
“Burning alive.” I replied.